“The LORD had said to Abram, ‘Go…’ [Genesis 12:1a]
I have found numerous times in my life that God will tell me what to do without telling me where to go. And again, I am in that situation: Amanda, the kids, and I will be moving on from Redemption Church in May. I will no longer be pastoring there, and, while my heart breaks over this decision, I believe God is asking us to move. But (frustratingly) he hasn’t told us where.
I don’t have much of a “father-son” relationship with God. God and I have more of a “fighting siblings” relationship. I really identify with Jacob in Genesis, Israel throughout the Hebrew Scriptures, and the disciples in the New Testament with Jesus–they wrestle with God and his plans. God and I wrestle. We argue. As much as he always loves me, I (to be honest) can get sick of him. But we are family so we stick it out. We still love each other. Because I know: God will come up big.
When our family came to Redemption, I had no job and took a volunteer leadership role at a church plant we weren’t too sure would actually work out. We did it (and again, I had to wrestle with God) because we believed that this was what God was asking us to do. After we were faithful to what he was asking us, I got a job at Philadelphia Biblical University as a Resident Director, and it is a job I have grown to love more than I ever expected. God came up big. Redemption Church has blessed us in many ways, but God is asking us (similarly to Abram) to “go.”
So, again, we are moving on because we believe God is asking us to. We don’t know where we are going. I will remain at PBU. But we are losing our church family, and that will be hard. Again, God has given us a “what” without a “where.” And again, we hope that God will come up big.